To know when you are British :
1. To have the constant feeling that there is a cup of tea next to you even though there isn’t.
2.To know what Greg’s is.
3.To constantly be lost in Tesco no matter how many time you go.
IM GETTING SO FUCKING TIRED!!!!
I have major anxiety issues. I have just started a new school and I cannot talk at all. And when I say at all I mean AT ALL! my voice box feels heavy, i get dizzy, sweaty, I cry, I shake , i feel as thought I’m drowning and all the advice I get is “just introduce yourself” HU THANKS!!! -.-‘
The worst thing about today was when the teacher said to pair up in the class and the person I was paired with decided to join another group to make a 3 and when the teacher asked me for the answer I had nothing and everyone did that look at me like the were calling me an ‘idiot’.
Also everyone from my class went out for lunch together and didn’t invite me an left me sitting alone in the class room. ’ so why didn’t you tag along’
How could I !
I knew non of there names and when I went to grab food from the shops they went straight past me like I was invisible to them.
The diary for a KillJoy- by Eruanna
I have a headache.
My family weighed themselves today.
I got 10.8 stone, my sister 9, my brother 18, my ‘stepdad’ 14 and my mum 10.5.
I wasn’t that bothered by the fact I’m a stone and 8 heavier then my older sister, but the way my family rubbed it in and that I was heavier then my 48 year old mother.
Urhhh my head hurts.
It feels like a hurt you keep pressing to see how much pain you can inflict on to yourself.
I’m never praised about my looks in my household. To be honest I can’t remember the last time I have Hurd my mother say I was pretty. Not that I’m Narcissist it would be nice sometimes if I get a random “hey , I like your hair today” instead of “hey jiggle thighs!” It’s like they forgot I have self esteem.
I’m starting to sound like a 13 year old drama queen. “pay attention to me, pay attention to me !” NO! Stop acting so self absorbed! Grow a pair and grow up! -sorry mental note.
The floors become softer, Is that odd?
I have ignored the spiders, brushed the rubble away with my hand and now I’m just waiting in the dark for my headache to subside and my self esteem to return.
If it ever does.
I doubt it.